Tag: nobody cares TT

does it still count as being aromantic if you like having your persona/self insert/etc paired with characters but you’re not actually interested in dating irl

there’s probably a specific term for this but is it still considered as being aro or is this another thing entirely

like i like putting my self inserts in different relationships because it’s fun to imagine, but I can’t imagine myself, in reality, in a romantic relationship; like real me going on a real date with real people just isn’t as exciting.

Then again I kind of think that even though my self inserts are supposed to be me, I don’t actually think of them as myself??? I still kind of think of them as a character I made, even though they look like me and (usually) act like me, I don’t consider them as myself for real?

is that still considered a self insert/persona character?

And on the other hand, is this a legit thing or am I being one of those weird creepers that everyone likes to portray where they go “3d girls aren’t as good as 2d girls” and i don’t want to admit it???

I dunno it’s almost 4AM I should really go to bed but this has been bugging me a bit

I haven’t cried while trying to sleep in a long while.

sure i got a pretty interesting dream but idk if that makes up for the shit i had to go through yesterday

it’s a pretty lame dream really just me in some weird candy store having the time of my life and it not being ruined by people who apparently have to bring their personal shit into the fucking stage where everyone can fucking see for once

but nope it’s not fucking real

bullshit like that always fucking happens

I spend all my fucking time and effort on a little thing, a little group and then some point someone starts to blow shit out of proportion that could have been settled privately or at least in a calm and not damaging matter and it ruins fucking everything to the point where trying to build it back up is fucking hopeless

the first time I was on someone’s side and it was p horrible

this time i tried to be super neutral about it and not pick sides, but that turned out even worse for me because I’m too fucking paranoid that someone’s going to talk shit behind my back even though I’m trying to keep at least some semblance of a friendship or at least acquaintances with everyone

but no everything goes to shit anyway, and it’s always going to fucking end up with everyone moving on to too many different shit while I stand there like a dumbfuck at marvel at the fucking aftermath of a shitstorm

I’m too fucking tired with this shit

I could potentially get to see the third madoka movie…(At least if I buy a ticket before they’re all sold out)

But I don’t like the whole transfering trains and buses in places I don’t know bus routes and stuff arrrgh

and I can’t ask anyone to drive me there auuuuugh

also fucking december I don’t even know if I can actually GO since I might have work or family has plans and they’ll complain if i leave them to see “some super expensive movie” (not actually quoting them just assuming)

and by the time I might actually be comfortable with the bart/bus and might actually be free to go and watch, I’d be too late since It’s probably be too late to buy tickets when that time comes

I should just give up